clarify

So first of all, i want to say, i was in bad mood, thus for e comment i made. but my intention was not to attack ang. no. i dun have excuses for my wad i did on e pitch, but i have reasons for my comments.

wad i wanted to say was, i expected at least abit of support from all of u, not for wad i did of course, but for wad i was feeling. the game itself was frustrating, not because we lost, but because we didnt play well at all(until now i'm still freaking frustrated), and it's even more frustrating to see xing being body check intentionally so many times, even though it was unsuccessful and it's even more frustrating to see e ref not doing anything about it. plus the fact tt so many fouls were not given, i was fking frustrated la. and imagine coming back seeing e gaffer saying i deserve a red card, tt made my day.

i was really disappointed/angry to see that it was made public tt i deserve a red card. i dun deny i deserve it, but i think writing it here is uncalled for. people can say, but certainly not my teammates.

this is soccer. i know. alot of factors can influence the results. i cannot control external factors. but i dun like to see my frens being 'beaten' up on the pitch. even if it's not xing, it's anybody else, i would be this frustrated. u all can tell me wad are the things i could have done, but all i can say is, even though wad i did was wrong, i got no regret. they deserve to know we are not going to get bullied and keep quiet about it.

u all know wad i feel abt e passing game we strive to play. i agree we need to make more passes, but i think we are over-doing it. i think everybody has got their own opinion, so this is quite debatable. the less that is said, the better. but i needed to say that because of wad i'm going to say below.

Since e team's goals and my goals are so different, and i dun enjoy playing e game anymore, i'm gonna stop playing. treat it as i got ban for violent conduct. i deserve it anyway.

even as i say that, it doesnt mean i'm not gonna play anymore.(i know whether i'm there or not doesnt make any difference) i'll still play if u guys need me. maybe when u all lack players or lack defenders. this is still my team, how can i not play when my team needs ppl. but yes, if u all got enough, den i'm not going to play. at least not recently. maybe after a while i'll like playing soccer again. but not now.

having said that, i'm not going to stop doing wad i do in bpfc. even if i'm not going to contribute on e pitch, i'll still do my job - which is to send u guys details abt matches. unless sombody wants to take over,which i dun really mind because i think my sms is exploding.(made more friends in SIM) but ya, not playing doesnt mean i'm going to severe all ties with bpfc.

so that's it. i hope u all can win more matches, play better and enjoy your game. thanks for reading.